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    "The Room"

    Friday, April 25, 2008

    Interviews are just about the most ego-dipping thing in the world that makes you feel extremely despicable after they are over - whether or not it went well. If it did, then you can expect to feel horrid about expertly lying through your teeth and having said things that would usually make you sound highly superficial. If it didn't, then you would constantly berate yourself for not having been able to perform, no matter how superficial it might make you seem in the first place.

    Of course, that just essentially means that no matter the outcome of the interview, just having to go through the entire process is itself an ordeal. The fact that you probably spent a lot of time and energy mentally preparing yourself for it and agonizing over it for a long time before the interview doesn't help to alleviate the repeated playback of several cringeworthy moments after the interview even the least bit. At most, you can revel in a split second of a glorious victory over the interviewers where you said something that you thought sounded smart.

    I know, what a pain. Arghhh.

    I'm now wondering if going for several interviews at one narrow frame in time would actually numb my senses enough to be ever ready for a firing squad any day, or will it actually enervate me instead?

    Well, personally I wouldn't mind interviews that much if I didn't take everything so personally. If I went with a mindset to have a little chat with some strangers, perhaps the idea of an interview will not be as revolting. But of course, being me and being your typical suffering from some kind of paranoid syndrome sort of kid, this way of thinking is simply beyond me. What's worse is that I betray myself and my paranoia in all sense of the word by mumbling and rattling on and on nonstop, sometimes unconsciously slipping back into comfortable colloquial language. The horror of it all.

    I am seriously considering using school as an outlet for all my idiosyncrasies and nonsense, so as to avoid having to pour them out in a moment of nervousness in a room with a board of people with high standing and embarrass myself to no end.

    My own fear is that I will be so well-versed and comfortable in my own silliness that I will inevitably betray it in what I call "The Room".

    Good luck to me and my fellow job-searching friends (and rivals).


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