Last lesson ever in NUS
Friday, April 13, 2007
I didn't even realise until some of the other year 4s wanted to take a photo to commemorate our last lesson that it was
really the last lesson. I mean, okay that felt somewhat strange to think about and to type... what the hell, I even feel a little emo and sad about it!
And this is coming from someone who couldn't wait to graduate in the very first semester of her year one. So I expect I should be carrying my camera around school soon, especially on the last day of exams. And it's really strange 'cos I don't feel the "last" thing yet. Maybe it's because I still have one essay and exams to write so I don't feel the pinch yet.
Reading
Lao boo's last entry on "our future" was like damn weird la... it was like woah... slow down
Lao boo...
what job...
what wedding... I couldn't see myself doing any of that so soon. Okay maybe the job thing isn't too far away, like a month or two or so, but huh?! Wedding?! Righttt.
The rest of you better not get hitched so fast okay? The
angbao market has been increasing as the years go by, and poor people can't fork out so much every month. Imagine I have friends getting married every month or so... Omg. Please don't ha.
Er I mean eventually, but not so soon.
Despite all my complaints about drowning in essays and horrendous people in school, I actually still wanna study. Maybe it's 'cos I can't see myself doing anything else, like working. Or maybe it's because I feel I haven't learnt enough yet, and I feel emo that my education is just going to stop here. Whatever happened to "learning is a lifelong process"?
And maybe I also feel that I haven't studied as hard as I originally planned to when I first started out or as I think I should. But looking back, I probably wouldn't have done it any other way. I mean, it was a stepping stone for me and I learnt many lessons that I wouldn't have if things didn't happen. And all those things happened because of my own character, so I can't fault anybody or time or anything, and even if given a chance to go back into time, I probably would make the same mistakes over again, not because I want to, but because it's integrated in my character.
That is not to say that I couldn't have made choices that would have improved the situation a little or that I would never learn from my mistakes. But because I accept my own character, I know that it isn't perfect and so I make the mistakes that I made.
4:31 pm
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